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dudski ([personal profile] dudski) wrote2014-01-06 10:57 am

HOLE IN THE MIDDLE OF MY HEART LIKE A POLO

YEAR END MEMES! FINALLY! I'm warping these somewhat this year because some of these questions are never relevant to me and also so many of them are just "THIS WAS A BUILDING YEAR AND NOT MUCH HAPPENED" and also the general one and the fandom one end up repeating each other and also let's not pretend like I live a life where I can separate fandom questions out from questions about my actual life. SO:

1. What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?

I WAS A BAD FUCKING DRIVER! I was never cited for anything other than an expired sticker but I was pulled over three times in January and February, twice for speeding [41 in a 30, and 50 in a 30 that I thought was a 40] and once for an expired sticker. The 41-in-a-30 stop ended with a ticket for my expired sticker, and I never got a speeding ticket, but YIKES! I FELT REALLY SHITTY ABOUT IT BC I HAD NEVER BEEN PULLED OVER FOR REAL BEFORE, but it didn't happen again, so. LESSON LEARNED ETC.

Also in I'M A BAD DRIVER milestones I CAUSED A SERIOUS[ISH] CAR ACCIDENT FOR THE FIRST TIME, god, 2013 Sarah, GET IT TOGETHER, but it DID mean I got to RIDE HOME IN A COP CAR [front seat, although I did try to hint that I would be MORE THAN FINE with riding in the back like a criminal] and the cop was listening to Kiss 108 and Wrecking Ball came on and we just sat in silence and listened to it through the world's longest red light. AMAZING. BEST EXPERIENCE. SO GREAT.

Other...stuff? RELATED TO THE ABOVE: ACTUALLY GOT A CAR INSPECTED AND HAD IT PASS. [I DRIVE JUNKERS DON'T JUDGE MEEEEEEE.] GOT IN A PUBLIC FIGHT WITH A SOCIAL MEDIA PROFESSIONAL. Started talking openly about the fact that I failed out of USC. Cried ALL DAY and was sad for WEEKS about the death of a fictional character. Spent a lot of time with engaged people. Went wedding dress shopping with someone. Went to a comic convention. Blocked someone on every website I could for the first time in my 12+ years in fandom! [HI, JOSH. STOP READING EVERYTHING, JOSH.] Fought a teacher about a grade! Saw gas station staff manually changing the price on the big sign! Registered for a full slate of five classes and DID NOT DROP A SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Got an A in an online course that included discussion bullshit!

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

For the last few years I've just had a very general "don't be a complete waste of space" resolution and whatever, could have gone better, I COULD HAVE SPENT LESS OF 2013 LYING DOWN, but overall I'm fine with my choices and proud to have gotten to where I am now, ON THE CUSP OF A LOT OF STUFF THAT IS SO BIG AND SO GREAT THAT I DON'T EVEN FEEL THE NEED TO MAKE RESOLUTIONS BC I'M DOING SO MUCH THIS YEAR.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

REBS DID! Also probably at least three of my cousins, I don't know or care.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

One of my favorite teachers from middle school died of cancer, and I hadn't even known she was sick. IT WAS TERRIBLE.

5. What places did you visit?

Literally nowhere. FUCK!!!!!!!! OH GOD, WAS WHEN I DROVE TO NASHUA ON TUESDAY THE ONLY TIME I LEFT THE STATE OTHER THAN GOING TO PROVIDENCE FOR MAEVE? I'm going to Chicago or San Diego or Minneapolis or Toronto this year if it kills me. IF. IT. KILLS. ME.

6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?

Last year I said: Well, this isn't something I'll have throughout the year, but HOPEFULLY by year's end I'll have my Associate's? AND AN APARTMENT IN BOSTON?

THIS WAS DELAYED BY MY DECISION NOT TO PAY $$$$$ FOR SUMMER CLASSES [which I stand by, because fall classes ALSO ended up costing $$$$, and then the car accident cost $$, and so on] but also even then it seems like it was wildly optimistic on the apartment front. The current plan is JOB ASAP [I should really be on Craigslist right now but MEMES MUST], then graduation on May 31st and moving to Boston at around that time, too. SO: SAME ANSWER AS LAST YEAR, I GUESS.

7. What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory?

March 16, 2013: GOODBYE TO YOUNG JUSTICE AND ALSO THE PART OF MY SOUL THAT DIED WITH WALLY WEST.
July 17, 2013: SAW PACIFIC RIM FOR THE FIRST OF WHAT WOULD BE EIGHT TIMES IN THEATERS!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

HMMMMM. I'm very happy with how I did in school this year, actually. I mentioned these above, but: In spring semester I registered for five classes and completed all of them with As and Bs whereas normally I would have ended up dropping at least one of them, and then in the fall I took three courses, all of which required some level of ACTUAL EFFORT on my part, and got As in all of them. TURNS OUT I ACTUALLY CAN APPLY MYSELF! WONDERS NEVER CEASE!

9. What was your biggest failure?

Nothing, really? I DON'T KNOW. I could have done more, just in general - read more, written more, gotten out more, whatever - but honestly, I was where I needed to be at the end of the year.

OH, NEVER MIND: CRASHING MY CAR WAS MY BIGGEST FAILURE. DUH.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

NO, but I did spend seven straight months WISHING I would get a cold after THE PATIENT ZERO incident at work.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

My car! It was my first time buying a car in a low-pressure situation where I already had a functioning one so I had the luxury of not needing something right away, AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Liam Payne. My family. My friends.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Liam Payne. Bill. Aja.

14. Where did most of your money go?

SAME AS LAST YEAR, BORING SHIT. Tuition, buying the car, repairing the car.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

PACIFIC RIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2013?

Uh, basically anything by One Direction, plus the Pacific Rim theme, Baby Blue.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder?
Definitely happier.
Thinner or fatter? Probably the same.
Richer or poorer? Richer. EVERYTHING'S COMING UP DUDSKI.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Nothing, really.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

READING TEEN WOLF FIC.

20. How will you be spending New Year's?

Picked up Lisa and Colleen, got dinner, and then went downtown to the same bar as last year and stayed there from 9:30 until around one. I GOT HOME AT LIKE THREE, I WAS EXHAUSTED, HOLY GOD. Okay but it was GREAT because last year Lisa and I MAJORLY BONDED with this one couple who've been married for like thirty years and they talked to us all about how we're doing okay and we're gonna be okay AND THEN THEY WERE THERE AGAIN THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! Although maybe it's just my INSECURITIES talking but I feel like they were a little judgmental about the fact that Lisa and I are both doing more or less exactly what we were last year. IT WAS A BUILDING YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! I DID A LOT OF BUILDING!!!!!!!!!!!!

21. What did you do on your birthday?

Saw Hansel and Gretel: Witch Hunters with Emma and then got dinner with her and Kate. DELIGHTS.

22. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

All the things I'm hoping to pull together in the first six months of 2014! I'M DOING IT!

23. What kept you sane?

I don't know if the arms race of capslock and AU scenarios that defined my year with [profile] disco_vendetta can really be described as something that kept me sane rather than MADE ME COMPLETELY UNHINGED, but lbr those emails got me through some ROUGH DAYS.

24. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

WHAT IS IN THE WATER IN AUSTRALIA I DON'T UNDERSTAND [I'm talking about Liam Payne.]

25. Who did you miss?

LIZ, THREE YEARS RUNNING? It's actually terrible because we only spoke once in 2013 - on Friday it'll be a full year since I've interacted with her at all, which is SO MUCH YIKES, but I was pissed at her for not getting in touch on my birthday so I never called HER and she hasn't called ME and at this point I really should just call her, but I'm probably gonna wait until I have a new job lined up because I really don't want to go into the "so, what's new with you in the last YEAR?" conversation with "um, nothing."

26. Who was the best new person you met?

I MADE SO MANY GREAT NEW FRIENDS IN 2013!!!!!!!! IT WAS RIDICULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!! What with the death of LJ I had assumed I was pretty much done with finding worthwhile new people online but NOPE!!!!!!!!!!! THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE I TALK TO ON A DAILY BASIS WHO I DIDN'T KNOW A YEAR AGO!!!!!!!!!!!!

27. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013:

I learned nothing.

28. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

TO FIGHT MONSTERS, WE CREATED MONSTERS [what, the Pacific Rim theme doesn't have lyrics]

29. Your main fandom of the year?

Young Justice/Pacific Rim/One Direction, I guess? IF I HAD TO PICK ONE IT'D BE PACIFIC RIM. This was absolutely Pacific Rim's year.

30. Your favorite film watched this year?

THIS IS REALLY HARD. In terms of something that stands on its own: Pacific Rim. In terms of GOING ABOVE AND BEYOND EVEN MY WILDEST EXPECTATIONS: The Host. In terms of...IDK how to put it, but This Is Us, THIS IS US SO MUCH.

31. Your favorite book read this year?

HILARIOUSLY ENOUGH: DIVERGENT WAS THE BEST, AND ALLEGIANT WAS THE WORST.

32. Your favorite album or song to listen to this year?

It's all One Direction. I'm not sorry.

33. Your favorite TV show of the year?

JANUARY-JUNE: YOUNG JUSTICE.
JULY-SEPTEMBER: BREAKING BAD.
OCTOBER-DECEMBER: BROOKLYN NINE NINE.

34. Your best new fandom discovery of the year?

NOTHING WILL EVER FEEL LIKE LEAVING THE THEATER AFTER PACIFIC RIM FELT THAT FIRST TIME.

35. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year?

ALLEGIANT LOLOLOLOLOL OH MY GOD IT WAS SO BAD. IT WAS SO. BAD. [I'm actually more excited for the movies now, though, because it's not WHAT happened that made Allegiant terrible, which there'd be no getting around, it's just that the book was a thematic mess and was totally overloaded with bullshit, AKA EXACTLY THE KIND OF THING THAT COULD BE HEAVILY IMPROVED IN THE TRANSITION TO FILM. This assumes the movies are good.]

36. Your TV boyfriend of the year?

Forget TV. RALEIGH BECKET.

37. Your TV girlfriend of the year?

ARTEMIS CROCK: TV GIRLFRIEND OF MY LIFE. [And Amy Santiago, TV girlfriend of my fall/winter.]

38. Your biggest squee moment of the year?

Um, fuck, I don't even know. SO MUCH HAPPENED. WAS IT "YOU LOOK GOOD" OR "I COULDN'T BREATHE" OR "I NEVER DID HAVE VERY GOOD TIMING" OR "LITERALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT JAKE ABEL AS IAN O'SHEA" OR "STRONG, NOBLE, PERFECT, AND WARM...WARM" OR JESSE PINKMAN DRIVING AWAY OR ARTEMIS AND WALLY BEING REUNITED IN SUMMIT?

39. The most missed of your old fandoms?

Um, Young Justice I guess, but lbr by the time I stopped being devastated by that 24/7 I was SUPER occupied with 2013: THE BEST YEAR EVER TO HAPPEN TO FICTION so there really wasn't a lot of time to miss it.

40. The fandom you haven't tried yet, but want to?

Ugh, nothing, things are so much effort. SO. MUCH. EFFORT. Mom and I are supposed to start The Wire, though, so there's that.

41. Your biggest fan anticipations for the New Year?

UMMMMMMMMMM. WHAT DO I EVEN NEED? I HAVE EVERYTHING. LIAM PAYNE'S JUST GOING TO KILL ME ON A DAILY BASIS. I'M ALL SET.


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ALSO I CAN DO THE FIC MEME BECAUSE I WROTE NINE FICS [OR SIX AND THREE HALF FICS, W/E, CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT] THIS YEAR, WHAT WHAAAAAAAAAAAT. Nine stories, six-ish fandoms, 13,233 words. A RECORD-BREAKING YEAR, IN OTHER WORDS, even though it'd be practically nothing for a lot of people. I DID STUFF! WRITING IS GARBAGE. I DON'T ACTUALLY LIKE DOING IT.

YOUNG JUSTICE/BONES CROSSOVERS

1. The second half of the one where they get sent to some small mountain town. ROY SAW A DOCUMENTARY ONCE WHERE A BEAR GOT IN A CAR AND DROVE AWAY.

2. the one where they're undercover in vegas. WALLY FIGURED THAT IF HE BET ON ARTEMIS, SHE COULDN'T LOSE.

3. the one with the kitchen sink. WALLY THINKS IT'S BEEN PRETTY WELL ESTABLISHED THAT HE KNOWS PLENTY ABOUT WORKING ON ARTEMIS'S PIPES.


YOUNG JUSTICE

4. it's a love story baby just say yes. 10 THINGS AU! HOW TO LOSE A GUY AU! NEVER BEEN KISSED AU! JUST LIKE HEAVEN AU! BRING IT ON AU!

5. and i said i reckon i could walk, in which Wally refuses to hook up with Artemis while they're in Central City because his parents have eyes EVERYWHERE.

SOME GIRLS

6. greater than or equal to, aka Saz/quantitative analysis OTP.

ELEMENTARY/CK1BLOGS

7. I was the blogger at Panera Bread m4w (downtown metropolis), in which Joan Watson walks into a Panera in Metropolis.

THE HOST/PACIFIC RIM/TEEN WOLF/YOUNG JUSTICE A LITTLE IF YOU KNOW WHAT TO LOOK FOR

8. here's to what we bring with us (what is taken away), in which the Souls ask Mel and Wanda to help them out with their kaiju problem.

9. the unbreakable blue, in which ISAAC AND BURNS [THAT'S MEAGAN TANDY: WEREWOLF HUNTER/THE GIRL/BRAEDEN TO YOU, I GUESS] ARE JAEGER CO-PILOTS AND SHE'D STRAIGHT UP MURDER YOU FOR HIM IF IT CAME TO THAT.


My favorite story this year (my own): TIE: THE UNBREAKABLE BLUE AND THE ONE WHERE THEY'RE UNDERCOVER IN VEGAS.

My best story this year: This is a weird question to answer because there are like four stories TOTAL that I've written that it doesn't make me super self conscious to go back over. WRITING STORIES IS THE WORST, HONESTLY. I would rather ramble for ten thousand words of capslock about a story than actually write out a hundred words of it. HOW DO YOU DIALOGUE, HOW DO YOU ANYTHING. BUT with all that said I was really pleased with the fact that people other than me and [personal profile] torigates ended up enjoying the your hamlet Bones/YJ AU. WHO KNEW??????

Story most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion: What do you MEAN nobody read a Teen Wolf/Pacific Rim/The Host fusion that's based on an AU I sketched out with [profile] disco_vendetta where Allison is a Seeker in training who gets put in Lydia's body and they become best friends and Allison falls in love with Scott and then she sacrifices herself so Lydia can have her body back but Jackson stops Deaton from letting her die and Scott finds her an awesome new body and they live happily ever after [or maybe it was Scott inside Stiles's body, or maybe something else, we discussed this a lot of ways and I don't really remember which version won out in the end] and they end up finding another colony of survivors who ALSO have a human-sympathizing Soul named Burns Living Flowers who goes by Burns and rides a badass motorcycle everywhere and likes Isaac best out of everyone even though he never quite knows what to say around her, not that he ever needs to say anything, because she gets him like nobody else does, and then they end up getting contacted by the Stryder colony about a treaty with the Souls and these giant robots they can fight monsters in, and then Burns and Isaac train as copilots? WHAT DO YOU MEAN THAT'S TOO MUCH NECESSARY CONTEXT FOR A 500-WORD STORY? IT SEEMS PERFECTLY STRAIGHTFORWARD TO ME.

Most fun story: Probably it's a love story? It was a really quick AH, FUCK IT, LET'S JUST CRANK THESE OUT kind of thing, which made it relatively painless to write! PLUS IT'S ALL ROMCOM AUS, WHAT'S NOT TO LOVE. [It's actually also the only story I didn't write for someone? Four of the nine fics were for Tori, two were for Brita, one was for Clara, and one was for Yuletide.]

Sexiest story: I DON'T DO SEXY STORIES BECAUSE I CAN BARELY DEAL WITH DESCRIBING BASIC MOTION AND DIALOGUE AS IT IS, let alone two people getting all up on each other. This would be very reassuring news to 14 year old Sarah, who was always terrified of writing kissing scenes because she'd never kissed anyone. DON'T WORRY, PAST SARAH!!!!!!!! YOU'RE GOING TO BE TERRIBLE AT WRITING KISSING AND SEX NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!! EXPERIENCE DID NOTHING FOR YOU ON THAT FRONT!!!!!!!!

Hardest story to write: uhhhhhhhhhhh the Mako/Raleigh followup to the Mel/Wanda and Isaac/Burns fics? WHICH IS WHY IT'S NOT ON THIS LIST.

Most unintentionally telling story: Oh god don't even talk to me about the first draft of greater than or equal to. IT'S BEEN ERASED FROM EXISTENCE AND WE'RE ALL BETTER OFF WITHOUT IT.

Most "OHMIGOD HEY *I* WROTE THAT" fanon-turned-canon-moment: Nothing, I don't think.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January 2013: UM, A MEGA-CROSSOVER UNIVERSE IN WHICH THE ENSEMBLES FROM YOUNG JUSTICE, TEEN WOLF, THE HOST, PACIFIC RIM, ELEMENTARY, AND GOD KNOWS WHAT ELSE ALL GO THROUGH THE SOUL INVASION, MAKE BRAINWORM BFFS, AND THEN BECOME JAEGER COPILOTS AND KICK KAIJU IN THE FACE TOGETHER BECAUSE THEY HAPPEN TO BE OFF THE CHARTS DRIFT COMPATIBLE? A YEAR AGO I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT HALF OF THESE WORDS MEANT.

Did you take any writing risks this year? If by "risks" you mean "WRITE A TON OF SHIT THAT'S SO SPECIFICALLY CRAFTED FOR ONE PERSON'S ENJOYMENT THAT IT'S HARD TO SEE HOW ANYONE ELSE COULD POSSIBLY EVEN FOLLOW IT," then yes.

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